Archive for September, 2011

Why I choose silence on 9/11

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I had an entirely different blog written and scheduled to post today. Now I just don’t know what should be said. What can you say? We are approaching the tenth anniversary of the 9/11 terrorist attacks and I find myself flooded with horrible memories, thrown right back to September 11, 2001, as if it happened yesterday.

That morning, I remember waking up to the sun streaming into my bedroom and thinking it was a beautiful day. I don’t remember what I was planning to do but everything went out the window when my mother burst into my room and said a plane had hit the World Trade Center. She didn’t appear too shaken by it though, so I thought maybe it was a little private plane that clipped the corner of a building or something. We reached the living room just in time to see the second plane hit the other building on live television. I remember going numb and my brain shifted to a place of thinking it wasn’t real just to cope with what I had just seen.

I remember this hushed conversation with my mother a few minutes later.

“Why would another plane crash right there?” I asked.

Ashen, she replied, “I think we’ve been attacked.”

“By who? Who would do this to us?”

“I don’t know. I’m not going to work today.”

Somewhere in the back of my mind, as I watched the columns of smoke rise into that perfect blue sky, I knew the buildings were going to collapse. I also knew that I had been having nightmares of plane crashes all summer and a strange tingling of guilt set in, as if I had known it was going to happen and I could have prevented it. The horror of watching people die on live television took the forefront though and we both lingered in the house amongst eerie silence, lost in our own thoughts. I don’t think there was anything that could have been said. Honestly, I don’t know how the news anchors kept talking.

Later that afternoon, we decided to go get something to eat and clear our minds. At the time, I lived in Calhoun, which is a small town in northwest Georgia not prone to much traffic. We noticed right away that every gas station in town had lines stretching around every block. People were buying gas as if we might never have gas again. My mother decided it was better to fill up our tank too rather than risk gas prices skyrocketing as soon as the government declared war. We sat in line for 45 minutes at a gas station on highway 53, which was the main strip through town. When we left, I noticed a man standing outside of another gas station guarding the building with a shotgun. Fear really set in for me then. It occurred to me that we were only about an hour and a half from Atlanta, a major city with major businesses and skyscrapers. What if Atlanta was next on the attack list?

In the days that followed, once the adrenalin died away, I can only describe it as sliding underwater where everything moves in slow motion and the fear of drowning paralyzes your body. I had what I describe as a hysterical breakdown on the fourth day after the attacks and my doctor at the time ordered me to turn off the television for at least a week or more. My mental health was in danger. It took a year for me to really recover from the things I saw on 9/11 and during that year, I felt like all of my creativity and life was drained from my body. I couldn’t write. I couldn’t do anything artistic. My life was survival on a day to day basis. Sometimes I felt stabs of guilt because I was having such a tough time recovering from the attacks, yet I wasn’t there. It wasn’t my right to struggle so much. A lot of other people struggled to recover from the attacks who weren’t there as well, I found out, and my doctor termed my problems as survivor’s guilt along with post-traumatic stress from seeing thousands die on live television. I used to have nightmares about watching people jump from windows just as I had seen that day.

Every anniversary, I think maybe it’ll be easier this time – maybe it won’t feel like such a blow. But then the anniversary comes around again and it feels like the rug got pulled out from under all of us. Each year, I spend the day in silence away from technology as best as I can. I prefer to spend that day in reflection on how far we have come and how far we have yet to go. I meditate and think about what I can do to make this world a better place by having my life when those people no longer have their lives. It’s precious to be able to breathe, to work in a garden, to hug your loved ones, to work every day, and to contribute love where others try to spread hate. I use 9/11 to remind myself that life is not guaranteed and should be used to help humanity evolve into something better.

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Had to share this review of Unveiled: Fanny Chamberlain Reincarnated

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I had to share this review of my book, Unveiled: Fanny Chamberlain Reincarnated, that was posted on my Amazon page today. This review is the entire reason why I wrote this book.

I confess that it took me two readings of Unveiled: Fanny Chamberlain Reincarnated for author Jessica Jewett’s story to really sink in. This was not due to a lack of a good writing style or intriguing subject matter; Jewett’s book certainly pulled me in from the get-go in those respects. Rather it was due to me learning of my own past life identity not long after my initial reading and being faced with the barrage of emotions associated with it. The initial disbelief and denial. The self-hatred, guilt, regret, and longing directed towards the past. The anger at having to even face issues stemming from a past life in the first place. The wish for it to all just go away. All of these feelings have washed over me like a tidal wave ever since I found out who I was… and why I am the way I am in many aspects of my present life.

My first reading of Unveiled brought me to believe that it is an extremely compelling book and case for reincarnation written by a talented author. The second reading, however, touched me to the core. It comforted and reassured me as I again read, weeping at some points this time, of Jessica’s life-long journey in discovering her past as Fanny Chamberlain. She had to deal with many of the emotions and hardships that I am dealing with now, and to reread about her struggle to accept and be at peace with her past life gives me hope that perhaps someday I will learn as much about my present self by way of the past as she has.

“The understanding of the present cannot be completed without an understanding of the past,” Jewett writes. I truly believe that now, and her story is the perfect example of why that is so true.

Jessica did not write Unveiled for fame and glory. Her story was written in hopes of helping others whether they are simply curious about the prospect of reincarnation or coping with the emotions associated with learning of past lives themselves. She once mentioned that if her work touched the life of at least one person then she would feel as though it served its purpose. Well, Jessica, it has touched my life and helped me understand my own situation in ways I could never have imagined. All I can say is a heartfelt “thank you.” Thank you so much for sharing your story.

I would recommend Unveiled: Fanny Chamberlain Reincarnated to anyone. It not only contains plenty of compelling evidence for reincarnation that will make any skeptic think twice, but it will almost certainly inspire and encourage anyone who wants to understand himself or herself better by way of their own past lives.

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Christmas Through the Ages at Red Doe Plantation

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Are you going to be in South Carolina between December 2 and 4? I will be volunteering at this Christmas event for the entire weekend at Red Doe Plantation. We are putting on this event to educate the public about the evolution of Christmas in America, and raise money to help rescue and restore this historical landmark from deterioration beyond salvation. We have a lot of fun things planned that you’ll see on the schedule below and it’s an excellent opportunity to do some good for this holiday season. Are you a reenactor? We are looking for volunteers who reenact the colonial period, the antebellum period, pre-World War I, and post-World War II. There is information below if you are interested in volunteering. I will be at Red Doe all weekend volunteering and portraying Fanny Chamberlain. I will update this blog if any attractions are added or any changes are made, so check back often!

Christmas Through the Ages at Red Doe Plantation

Step inside the big house and travel back to Christmas past as living historians portray scenes from colonial, antebellum, pre-WWI and post-WWII life during the holidays. Learn about traditional home-made gifts, music, dances and sample seasonal recipes!

Friday, Dec. 2
10am-2pm SCHOOL DAY – Reservations required!
5pm-9pm BONFIRE & CAROLING

Saturday, Dec. 3
10am-5pm TOURS
5pm-9pm BONFIRE & CAROLING

Sunday, Dec. 4
10am-11am OLD FASHIONED CHURCH SERVICE
11am-4pm TOURS

Call (919) 279-8768 or email reddoerestorer@yahoo.com for details, to register or to volunteer.

This event is FREE but donations will be greatly appreciated. Guests will be able to vote for their favorite room by dropping donations into a marked jar. Vote with a penny or paper money, just please VOTE! Proceeds will go toward the restoration and preservation of this National Historic Register property.

*REENACTORS* Any amount of time you can participate will be appreciated. You are welcome to stay in the house or set up camp on the grounds. There will be electricity, water, and firewood available. Can’t come for the actual event? We still need your help getting the house cleaned, yard “tamed” and sets built/props collected. There’s a way for everyone to help! Thank you!

Red Doe Plantation
1132 Francis Marion Rd.
Florence, SC

Please visit http://www.reddoeplantation.bbnow.org to learn more and make secure donations!

See you in December!

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