The hard truth

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Ariana GrandeIt’s tough to watch bloodied people fleeing the explosion in Manchester Arena tonight – gut wrenching, in fact. I haven’t looked at the news in a little while, so I don’t know what caused it. Maybe it was an accident with mishandled pyro or something. Maybe it was intentional. Maybe someone had so much blackness inside of them that they wanted to murder innocent children. Most of Ariana Grande’s audience are, in fact, quite young.

As we’ve progressed into this world where suicide bombings and terrorism aren’t just limited to foreign countries where we can’t imagine ourselves hurt or even inconvenienced, I’ve worked very hard to wrap my mind around it. I’ve asked myself some hard questions about nature and the greater universe.

I’ve come to this conclusion. A lot of you might not like my conclusion but I’ve been thinking about it for years. I’m pretty certain about it.

There is good and bad in the universe. You can’t have one without the other. We can see this proven in nature – it’s cruel and kind. Good and bad are related and proportional. We will never eliminate all the evil out there because it would throw the universe off balance. What you can do is shine your soul toward goodness whether your lens is a religious moral compass or simple compassion and a peaceful non-religious approach to life. I don’t believe “the end times” are literal. I’ve seen no evidence to say any god has anything to do with the world’s current state aside from human beings using deities to justify slaughtering each other. I don’t think any religious entity is going to save us from ourselves, nor do I sit and wait for that.

The basic balance of life boils down to this: be the good you want to see in the world. Counterbalance the bad with your time invested in making the world a better place than when you entered it. You have to accept that the bad part of the universe is never going to fade completely and you’ll make yourself mentally collapse trying to undo a balance required to allow goodness to flourish too. Give your time to people in need. Use your influence for positive change even knowing bad will never totally go away. Touch a few lives while you’re here. We can’t erase evil completely but we can influence each other to flourish in hope. Don’t wait for rescue. Get out there and show people how to live fruitful, productive lives by your example. That will do so much more to inspire than anything else. Don’t give evil the attention it needs to thrive.

That’s how you lead a fulfilled life.

May the souls lost in Manchester tonight find peace. All my love.

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Chris Cornell and Mental Health Drugs

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Chris CornellRegarding Chris Cornell’s death and the question of whether anxiety medication or antidepressants are harmful.

My brutally honest experiences play out thus: it takes a long time to find the correct medication for your body chemistry and if you’re on the wrong one for too long, it can indeed cause Chris-level of results. I have been medicated for depression and anxiety stemming from PTSD since I lost my child, which was 12 years ago. I should have been on mental health drugs when I was younger but I never verbalized the need until it was a desperate situation. It’s only been in the last 4 years that I’ve been on the correct medication. In fact, one of the most popular drugs, Zoloft, almost landed me in intensive care because my blood pressure bottomed out to 80/50 for over a week. Other drugs have worsened my symptoms instead of helping them. It took more time than not to find the right combination for my body.

Whether you live with PTSD, depression, anxiety, or any other mental illness, a drug alone is not going to solve the problem. You have to maintain a dialogue with yourself through cognitive behavioral therapy, regular counseling, anger management, more intensive psychiatric treatment if necessary, or alternative medicine like the holistic route, a strict meditation regime, yoga, art therapy, etc. You have to be willing to touch the dark thing that put you in your illness in the first place. Only taking pills, in my experience, simply puts a Band-Aid on the illness. You wouldn’t just take ibuprofen for a broken bone and call it a day, would you? No, you’d combine medication with medical treatment. Mental illness has to be approached the same way as approaching any other physical illness or injury.

Chris Cornell’s wife is probably correct in blaming the drugs her husband was on when he died. I’ve known other people to suffer on the wrong treatment plan too. I’ve been one of them but luckily I never reached the point of no return – at least in a way that succeeded.

Why are people on the wrong antidepressants so often? I don’t know for sure. I do know that mental health is still thought of as a shameful thing. It’s even a secret in my own household because people are ashamed of their mental health needs. I’m not ashamed of it, nor am I secretive about it, because I’m years and years into PTSD treatment. I’ve been through various kinds of therapy mixed with drugs and so forth (when my insurance allows it). I know what works for me. But I also know I’m not a typical case because so many people are simply handed pills and expected to recover immediately.

Until attitudes about mental health issues are changed in this country, tragedies like Chris Cornell’s suicide are still going to happen.

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Concerning past life readings, tarot readings, etc.

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Just a quick note.

I’m doing the best I can with past life readings and tarot readings and stuff. I realize things don’t move as fast as they should but you guys need to remember a few things.

One: my health is unpredictable. I get sick without much warning and when I do get sick, my body shuts down. Right now I’m on antibiotics that are making me want to throw up all the time. I cannot work when I’m sick.

Two: my family life is unpredictable. I live in about 900 sq ft with two other people and several animals. My schedule doesn’t always agree with their schedules, which means there are lots of times when I expect quiet and privacy to work but I don’t get it.

Three: Do you see me doing art in the afternoons? That’s when my home health caregiver is here. I can’t work in the afternoons on readings because of her working here. Home health is supposed to assist me in daily life, not sit here and watch me work on the computer. Your tax dollars pay for these caregivers and they need to be utilized correctly.

So when I say I think I can get to you on a certain day but I don’t, that’s not me putting you off – that’s stuff here at home coming up and getting in my way. I work when I can. Much of this is outlined in the confirmation emails when people sign up for readings, so it’s not a surprise. I work when I can and I get to everybody as fast as I can. Yes, it can be a wait to work with me. I’m sorry about that but yelling at me isn’t going to make it go faster. Wait times for readings with other more famous intuitive people can be as much as two years and it’s almost never as quick as a couple of days like people want when working with anybody in this field. Average wait times are weeks or months in advance for all of us.

This work is hard and it makes most of us sick or develop fatigue conditions over time the more we do it. I used to force myself to do 12 readings every day, 6 days a week. Sure everybody was happy and I made more money, but you know what? I ended up in the hospital because I got so sick from pushing myself that hard. I will not do that again.

Be patient. Nobody gets forgotten. I have a list and an email folder where my orders get filtered. It just takes me longer, which is spelled out on my website. I WILL GET TO YOU. Please allow me to determine at what pace I can work.

Okay? Thank you.

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