11 Freakin’ Months!

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>Some men do keep their promises, contrary to what everything in my life has taught me. This jersey pictured below has magical powers. I’m convinced. Once you read the story behind it, you will be convinced too.

Eleven months ago, on March 25, 2009, I went to my third New Kids on the Block show. Maine is a very special place to me. Some of my best friends live there and many of the happiest memories of my present life have taken place there (see this page for my past life connections to Maine: http://www.jessicajewettonline.com/unveiled.html). The show was fabulous as always, even though a random girl plowed over me and broke my leg in her attempt to get closer to Jordan for better pictures. That story is a whole other blog, though.

At the end of the show, the guys all wave to the crowd, blow kisses, say good night and all of that fun stuff. Jon knew me pretty well by that point since I had given him a “pitchah” as he called it when I was at the Nashville show. He waved at me and I thought that was nice. Then he tugged on the jersey he was wearing and mouthed the words, “I’m gonna give you my shirt.” I think I gave him a blank stare of disbelief for a second because I thought maybe he was talking to someone else. Surely not me! I nodded though and he nodded back. I watched, probably with my jaw on the floor, as he stripped off his jersey, hopped down from the stage, handed it to my brother and blew a goodbye kiss at me. You can watch the incident in this YouTube clip somebody took. (Sorry, Jon. I know you hate YouTube but this is one of the best memories of my life.)

My euphoria was short-lived, however. The guys left the stage and people started to leave. Armando, their security guy, approached and said that he needed the jersey back because all five of them were destined for an auction for breast cancer research. I think he expected me to throw a fit but I gave it up willingly. The money that jersey could raise, in my mind, was more important than one fan having it for nothing. I let it go and never expected to see it again. Jon apologized in his own way and I went home with a busted leg but some of the best memories I could ever hope to call my own. The gesture and the thought that he wanted me to have the shirt off his back was something that nobody could take away from me.

A little while later, the five jerseys that New Kids on the Block wore on stage in Maine were listed on eBay for breast cancer research fundraising. I thought maybe I could use my story to bring in bigger donation bids on Jon’s jersey, so I started advertising the eBay link everywhere I could. I wanted Jon girls to knock the other guys’ jerseys out of the ballpark. Little did I know, as the bidding surpassed $1,000, there was a conspiracy going on behind the scenes. Two girls that I barely knew felt the jersey should have been mine and they were unknowingly bidding against each other to win it back for me.

I will let Sissy tell her part of the story:

I had no idea any of this was going on until I got to the cruise last May. Sissy found me at the Family Feud game on the first night, I think (that whole weekend was a blurr of RedBull, seasickness and cat naps), and she told me what she had done with winning the jersey. At the cruise meet and greet, she wore the jersey in and told Jon what she was wearing. She took it off right there in front of him and gave it to him, much to the shagrin of New Kids security, who really hate it when you sneak gifts in right in front of them. The plan was that Jon was supposed to be the one to give me the jersey when he saw me on the cruise. Sissy thought he should be the one to give it to me. We all know Jon, though. We know that a) he’s forgetful, b) he’s late for everything, and c) he’s easily distracted. The cruise was crazy and Jon forgot to give it to me, or whatever happened. Instead, he took it home with him.

And so began the nine month badgering fest of, “Jon, don’t forget the jersey.” “Jon, do you still have the jersey?” “Jon, you ought to go to the post office.” “Jon, I don’t live in Tennessee anymore.” “Jon, Jon, JONATHAN RASHLEIGH KNIGHT!!! HELLOOOOO??!!”

Jon is cute but is busier than a puppy in a puppy biscuit factory. He responded from time to time, promising that when he had some time, the jersey would be mine. The words, “I promise,” coming from any man scare the hell out of me though, because I don’t really have any examples in my life of men who understand the meaning of, “I promise.” Maybe one or two. I admittedly have very little faith in men who make promises, so for most of these last nine months, I didn’t bother reminding him about the jersey. If it was meant to be mine, it would find its way to me eventually. If I know anything about Jon, it’s that nobody can order him around. He does things on his own time. Even when I was told to remind him, I had a crisis of conscience because I didn’t want to irritate him and I knew I was looking like a spammer to those who enjoy tearing me down.

After Jon’s surgery, my friends picked up on what I was doing through my tweets to him and they joined the effort to get him on the ball and return my jersey. I don’t even know how many of them helped me now. Probably a dozen or more in the last few months. There is a lot of dishonesty and jealousy running rampant in the blockhead world, but there is a lot of sisterhood, brotherhood and joy in seeing each other succeed too. I’ve seen both sides of the coin and I choose to take the joy with me rather than the jealousy.

Around my birthday, Jon finally had the opportunity to put the jersey in the mail. I think he mailed it on my literal birthday, in fact. My friends all seemed more excited for me than I was for myself and we even made a “package pool” to see which day it would arrive. I woke up today feeling more energetic than I had in a while and I was deep into doing past life and tarot readings for people as I always do with my job. I was deep into a reading when my mother brought a box in the house and put it in the chair next to me. I recognized Jon’s handwriting before I saw his name and, needless to say, I still haven’t finished that reading (sorry, Amanda D., you’ll get it tomorrow!). He was thoughtful enough to send a birthday card along with the jersey.


Everybody knew the jersey story all these months and I would have felt selfish in not sharing my joy, so I put a picture of the jersey with the card on Twitter. Hopefully Jon didn’t mind about that. I’m keeping the contents of the card to myself, so I don’t think he would mind the fuzzy image of it with the jersey. Truly, it only proves how thoughtful he is. It’s not an act. It’s not an image for the public. Jon is who he is whether he is on stage in designer clothes or on his hands and knees laying hardwood floorboards in dirty work boots. Yes, he can be a bit of a procrastinator, wickedly stubborn, late for everything and all of that, but those things all make him who he is right along with his thoughtfulness, sincerity, generocity and his true need to see people happy. For once in my life, “I promise,” actually means something substantial.

The jersey also brought me together with great people who I would not have known had Jon not impulsively took off his “shirt” that night. Sissy and Lauren went above and beyond the call of friendship for someone they barely knew. Now Sissy and I are great, close friends and I adore her. Tinah! Tina helped with reminding Jon about it and we are fabulously great friends in the last several months too. So many people had a hand in it. I couldn’t possibly name everybody but you know who you are. It may be just a piece of clothing that Jon once wore but when I look at it, I will always remember how many people cared enough to get it back to me. It went to several states and countries, lived for months in Jon’s house, and finally came home to me where he intended it to be way back in March 2009.

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>History Tuesdays & Paranormal Thursdays make a comeback?

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>During the spring, I used to teach different historical topics on Tuesdays and different paranormal topics via my Twitter account of JJ9828. They were pretty popular with my Twitter followers, but at the same time, those who were not interested in participating were inundated by our tweeting discussions. I was also very occupied with my various other projects, so teaching these virtual classes took a backseat. Several people have been asking me if I would begin teaching again and I decided that I will leave it up to you all since I would be doing it for you rather than myself.

So this is where you come in. In the comments below, tell me if you would like me to teach these things and hold discussions again. I would do it in a chat room situation like tinychat designed for Twitter users, although anybody can use those chat rooms as I understand it. That way my Twitter page is not flooded by teaching and I don’t have to irritate those who don’t want to participate. Would you prefer History Tuesday, Paranormal Thursday, or both? What related topics would you like to discuss? What times (Eastern) should we hold these discussions? What days, if Tuesdays and Thursdays are no good? I will go with majority rule on these things. Let me know your thoughts!

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>Excerpt of Fire on the Mississippi

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>Here is an excerpt from my current novel, Fire on the Mississippi (tentative title), which is the sequel to From the Darkness Risen and you can find that on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, etc. This is a raw, unedited draft. I’m trying to write the whole thing from start to finish without editing and then re-approach the whole thing after an entire first draft is completed. This is a new writing method for me but I find it liberating, actually. All of the characters in this scene were real, historical figures in Civil War era St. Louis, except Eva Grimm, who is my creation and one of the central figures. This pro-Confederate network actually existed in St. Louis and I’ll be writing about the actual things they did. Robert Louden alias Charles Dale in St. Louis history was a rat bastard and I think I will thoroughly enjoy writing him. He was the equivalent of a domestic terrorist. Here is his first scene.

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Tuesday
St. Louis, Missouri

Eva considered hiring another carriage and going back home as she stood before the building at the address scrawled on the mysterious letter clutched in her hand.  Was she really back there again, back to a place of secrets and lies in her life?  Thaddeus had worked tirelessly at her side to eradicate those behaviors from her character.  Her secretive behavior nearly cost her the presence of that loving man in her life once already.

The limestone building towered three floors above her and appeared to be someone’s home.  Surely it could not be Mrs. Sappington’s home.  That woman, who regularly engaged in espionage work for the Confederacy, lived out on the Manchester road, not there in the center of the city.

Curtains fluttered in the window to the right and she suddenly felt observed.  Self-consciously, she touched her bonnet and fluffed her blue plaid skirt, but did she truly want to stay?

The front door swung open and Mrs. Sappington’s round, smiling face appeared.  She lightly descended the front stoop and met Eva in an embrace that instantly made her uneasy.  She glanced around the street to see if anyone watched them.  No one paid attention but she had never gotten along with that woman and found her greeting quite bizarre.

“Miss Reed!  I mean Mrs. Grimm!  So good to see you again.”

“Yes,” Eva replied with distinctive Southern politeness over her internal suspicion.  “It’s been many months since we last shared company.”

“Indeed, it has.  Come now, let me help you get inside out of the cold.  There’s a good fire going.”  Mrs. Sappington gripped Eva as if she knew about the amputation, which she found unnerving.  She allowed herself to be led inside nevertheless.

The very moment the door shut them away from prying eyes, all politeness dropped from Eva’s countenance and Mrs. Sappington looked more like herself, always plotting her next move.  “Why have you lured me here?” she demanded in a low, calm tone.  “My husband would be none too pleased with this.”

“Your husband?”  Mrs. Sappington’s voice tittered lightly with cynical laughter.  “Forgive me, Mrs. Grimm, but I find it highly amusing that you are an honest and true married woman, to a Yankee schoolteacher no less!  Why, if that were true, would you be here?  Curiosity killed the cat.  Come along.”  She looped her arm through Eva’s and aided her to the back of the house.  “I brought you here because of your special talents in our field matched only by your deathless love for our glorious Confederacy.”

“But I’m not involved in those things anymore.”

Eva lost her words as they entered a shadowy back parlor that seemed to exist at the end of a long, rambling maze within the house.  Gaslights smoked unchecked, giving the room a macabre feeling, with the fireplace blazing.  All manner of tables and desks withstood the weight of clutter from stacks of paper to stacks of books and scattered half-empty bottles of wine and partially eaten tins of crackers and even chocolate.

Four men and two women looked at her and the entire scene reminded her of a European painting of mysterious figures.  One man in particular openly took measure of her as he stood with a bent arm resting on the fireplace mantle and the other hand gripping his waistcoat.  His black hair combed back with oil still gave the impression of haste, as did the stubble peppering his face.  He glared at her through hardened icy blue eyes.  She instinctively dropped her own eyes to the floor, recalling the demure training of her childhood.

“You should have used the back door,” he said darkly.

“Pardon me?”

“I had not instructed her properly,” Mrs. Sappington interjected as she poured a glass of wine.  She faced Eva and thrust the glass into her hand.  “Next time use the back door.”

“What is all this?” Eva pressed.

“You are among friends, my dear,” replied Mrs. Sappington, although she rather nervously swallowed mouthfuls of her own wine.  She gestured to the hateful creature hanging from the fireplace mantle and the submissive creature seated nearby.  “This is Robert Louden and his wife, Mary.”  She moved to the back and gestured to another couple.  “This is Absalom Grimes and his fiancée, Miss Lucy Glascock.  The gentlemen just there are Albert McClure and Charles Clark, respectively.  Their wives are with us as well but upstairs with the children at present.”

Eva nodded a general greeting to the room, short but polite.

“Everyone, this is Mrs. Eva Grimm, formerly of Charleston but now a resident of our fair city by way of her husband who teaches at St. Louis University.”

“You married pro-Union?” Louden observed as he took a long swallow from his glass.

“I don’t see how that is any of your business,” snapped Eva under the veil of cool politeness.  The inquisition made her rage underneath her courteous exterior.

“Robert,” Mary, the mousy wife, attempted with a gentle touch.

“No, the question must be asked.  How must we be expected to give her our trust if she willingly and knowingly married the enemy?”

“Mrs. Grimm,” interrupted Mrs. Sappington with a commanding voice, “was shot just this past summer while aiding the escape of our own Confederate men from the military prison across the river.  Even with a gunshot and bleeding into the street, she concealed the identity of one of the escaped soldiers from those who meant him harm.  That very gunshot resulted in the amputation of her foot above the ankle.  She did all of this while married to the professor and, as I recall, he aided in the escape.”

Eva had never heard the Sappington woman speak so highly of her.  Typically, she reserved her praise for Isabelle during their brief association in the spring.  It appeared that the woman’s glowing report of her bravery under fire silenced the hostility hanging over the room, although Eva could not make sense of the odd gathering.  It was like something out of a novel.

“If I am not told why I was brought here right this instant, I will have to take my leave,” she announced.  “I feel rather unwelcome and I do not intend to stay where I feel like the enemy by association of my husband.”

Perhaps they waited for her to call their bluff.  No one responded to her threat.  After a moment, she placed her untouched wine glass on the nearest table and turned with her crutches to leave.

Louden’s voice cut through the room and the cold, calculating tone sounded as if it was the natural way he spoke.  “We are agents dedicated to the survival of the Confederacy.  A few of us have served in the army, however, the purposes and practices of this organization are done under the cloak of secrecy and without seeking public glory.  We conduct our business beneath the superficial layer of society but it is no less important to the conduct of the Confederacy in Missouri and along the Mississippi.”

“You’re spies.”  Eva eyed him and shrugged.  “Mr. Louden, I played this game once already for General Jackson.  Smile, flirt and charm one’s way into the Yankee’s good graces for facts and figures to be reported back to our army.  My participation in these games resulted in my friend being raped by a Yankee officer.  I’m tired.  I’m weary of this life and I left it behind me.”

“What you did for General Jackson was akin to a nursery rhyme compared to what we do,” scoffed Louden.  “We actually make a difference with the war effort in the West.  We ensure the passage of mail through enemy lines, for instance.  Much of our work is handed to the Confederate government through our mail.  We’ve also begun intensifying our efforts with destroying enemy steamers carrying supplies and men.  It will become the focus of our work as we have found it to be the most effective with frightening the Yankees and destroying things they need to survive.  Our women are just as involved in the work as our men.”

Silence.

Louden shrugged deeply and tilted his head in disbelief for effect.  “If you don’t feel that you have the internal fortitude for this, then you may see yourself to the door, Mrs. Grimm.  If you want to make a difference,” he paused, “and honor the glorious death of your brother for the cause, then you must join our efforts.”

“Once you join us, there is no turning back,” added Mrs. Sappington, “and no one must know.  No one.”

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