To put it mildly, I’m struggling to wrap my head around life right now. I think of myself as a very strong person but I’m not handling things well this week. One thing just gets piled on top of another. My home being flooded and destroyed ten days ago was enough to throw my world for a loop. I’ll be living in a borrowed room out of a bag of scattered things for the foreseeable future. Honestly, though, my flood is eventually going to be resolved but I’m struggling more with people dear to me being so sick, people getting killed just to see a movie, etc.
When you’re an empath, you feel your own suffering and you feel the suffering of everyone you care about too. My heart hurts. I’m afraid of all the uncertainty around me these days. What hurts the most is not being able to comfort the people who need more than I do. I can’t make anything better. I can’t make things go away.
Tonight and tomorrow, I’m going to spend some time putting Humpty Dumpty back together again. Things have slowly been chipping away at me and I need to pick up the pieces to keep going because that’s what I do. I put one foot in front of the other and I keep going because people depend on me to pick up their pieces and keep them going too. Tonight I’m spending time in quiet reflection and prayer. Yeah, I know. Me. Prayer. Somehow I got sucked back into that particular ritual. It’s all I can do at this point. I’m also going to release all of my negativity and angst into my journal, hence the picture. That’s my current journal. Tomorrow I will repeat the process and hopefully that will put me in a better place.
The reason I’m telling y’all this is because I know a lot of you are suffering too. Give quiet time, prayer and journaling a shot. These things really will clear your mind, at least enough to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Don’t get stuck. Acknowledge your feelings but don’t become paralyzed by them. You have the power to help people around you but you have to help yourself first.
I love y’all. Don’t forget to tell people you love them. It’s so important to do it now while you can.